posting lagi..posting lagi....

huah,, finally,,
mood gw wat nulis bergejolak..
akhirnya gw posting lagi di blog yang lumayan lama terbengkalai karena kesibukan2 gw..
ternyata udah banyak banget yang terjadi selama masa vakum gw..
kebahagiaan, tangis, kepedihan, dan tawa mewarnai hari2 gw..
tapi gw lum taw kemana arah tujuan smua itu.

pernah gw ditanya ma seseorang apa arti kehidupan wat gw..
and gw jawab "hidup adalah mengalir, tapi punya tujuan"
teringat lagi ma beliau yang udah banyak ngasih inspirasi bwt gw, membangkitkan lagi semangat berjuang gw yang sempet padam, hingga akhirnya gw nemunin kuncinya..
yeah, "a key"..
dats d'simple thing with d'great meaning..


kmaren sempet nonton film "I NOT STUPID TOO".. dapet dari tmen yang suka ngoleksi film2 asian gt..
dari situ gw dapet inspirasi, bagaimana sebuah kunci itu begitu berarti..
asalkan kita dah nemu kuncinya, everything is settled..

gw cuma pengen orang laen nglihat gw ga cuma dari satu sisi doang, tapi juga dari sisi yang laen..
cobalah buat menemukan kuncinya, karna itu yang akan membuka gw pada diri lo smua..
kesel juga ma justice orang2 tentang pandangan mereka mengenai gw just at the 1st sight..
padahal pandangan pertama tu ga sama sekali mencerminkan gw yang sebenarnya..
tapi heran, masih ada ya orang yang terlalu terobssi ma yang namane pandangan pertama..
huaks.. whatever lah..
tu pendapat, and U can say whatever U wanna say..
I dont care what do U think bout me.. coz this is d'real me.. coz I'm different...

Decode

How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

Nor can I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
I'm screaming, "I love you so."
On my own.
My thoughts you can't decode

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.

15 steps

How come I end up where I started
How come I end up where I went wrong
Won't take my eyes off the ball again
You reel me out when and you cut the string.

How come I end up where I started
How come I end up where I went wrong
Won't take my eyes off the ball again
You cut me in and reel the string

You used to be alright
What happened?
Did the cat get your tongue
Did your string come undone
One by one
One by one
Here it comes / ???
It is soft as your pillow

You used to be alright
What happened?
Etcetera Etcetera
Fetch for whatever
Fifteen steps
Then a sheer drop

How come i end up where i started?
How can i end up where i belong?
Won't take my eyes off the ball again
You reel me out when and you cut the string.

My Immortal

Je suis si fatigué d'être ici
Supprimée par toutes mes peurs enfantines
Et si vous devez quitter
Je souhaite que vous laissez
Parce que votre présence ici qui traîne encore
Et il ne sera pas me laisser seul
Ces blessures ne semblent guérir
Cette douleur est trop réelle
Il ya juste trop de temps que ne peut pas effacerLorsque vous pleuré je effacer toutes vos larmes
Lorsque vous criez je lutte loin toutes vos craintes
Et j'ai tenu la main à travers toutes ces années
Mais vous avez toujours
Tout de moi

Vous avez utilisé pour me séduire
Par ta lumière résonnante
Maintenant, je suis lié par la vie que vous laissé derrière
Ton visage, il hante
Mon rêve, une fois agréable
Votre voix, il chassé
Tous les bon en moi

Ces blessures ne semblent guérir
Cette douleur est trop réelle
Il ya juste trop de temps que ne peut pas effacer
J'ai essayé tant de mal à me dire que vous êtes allé
Mais si vous êtes toujours avec moi
J'ai été seul tout au long de

The Adventure

I wanna have the same last dream again
The one where I wake up and I'm alive
Just as the four walls close me within
My eyes are open up with pure sunlight
I'm the first to know
My dearest friends
Even if your hope has burned with time
Anything that is dead shall be re-grown
And your vicious pain, your warning sign
You will be fine

Hey oh here I am
And here we go
Life’s waiting to begin

Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If you're gonna fall
I'll let you know
That i will pick you up
Like you for i
I felt this thing
I can't replace
When everyone was working for this goal
Where all the children left without a trace
Only to come back as pure as gold
To recite this all

Hey oh here I am
And here we go
Life’s waiting to begin
Tonight
Hey oh here I am
And here we go
Life’s waiting to begin
Tonight
Hey oh here I am
And here we go
Life’s waiting to begin

I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I can’t breathe
Unless you do this with me

Hey oh, here I am (do this with me)
Here we go
Life's waiting to begin (do this with me)
Hey oh, here I am (do this with me)
Here we go
Life's waiting to begin
Life's waiting to begin

Everything's Magic

And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish to be unknown?
I can say that I have...
I can say that I have...
And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
I can say that I have...
And I can say that I have...

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic
Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand, and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic

And do you ever lay awake at night?
And do you ever tell yourself, don't try
Don't try to let yourself down,
Don't try to let yourself down...
And do you ever see yourself in love?
And do you ever take a chance, my love?
Because you know that I will...
Because you know that I will...

So hear this please
And watch as your hearts speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic
Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand, and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic
Everything, everything's magic

Miss Independent

Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise...It's time
To feel what's real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye, old you
When love is true

Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you want to use that line you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't want to end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing her misconceptions
She went in a new direction
And found inside she felt a connection
She fell in love.

When Miss Independence walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I finally seen ...

Fifteen

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It’s the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain’t seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody’s way

It’s your freshman year and you’re gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven’t seen you around
Before

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen
Feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We’ll be out of here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you’re feeling like flying
And you’re momma’s waiting up and you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
When you’re fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin around but
In your life you’ll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy that changed his mind
And we both cried

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen
Don’t forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
You just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn’t know who I was supposed to be
At fifteen

You’re very first day
Take a deep breath, girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors

"I have a DREAM"

Sepenggal lirik yang gw comot dari Westlife yang bener2 bikin gw inspired banget. Satu kata, “dream”, tapi punya banyak makna di baliknya. Membuat kita harus berani untuk bermimpi. Dalam hal ini gw agak bingung juga dengan penggunaan kata “bermimpi”. Dalam bahasa Indonesia, kata bermimpi bukankah menunjukkan kata kerja intransitive? Yang berarti ga butuh obyek. Padahal kalau orang punya mimpi, itu artinya ada obyek yang diimpikan bukan? Tapi kurang pas juga kalau kita gunakan kata memimpi. Sense’y gemana gt. Tapi itulah yang lazim kita gunakan. But, what da hell with EYD. Kali ini gw ga pengen blajar bahasa Indonesia karna gw bukan penyair atau pujangga yang terikat oleh aturan2 rima dan syair atau kebakuan bahasa. Karna gw pengen bicara tentang “mimpi”.

Mimpi… What do U think?? Do U have a dream?

Mimpi terkadang indah, tapi belum tentu mimpi buruk adalah sebuah musibah. Apalagi mimpi basah, wuih, anugrah.. *hehe* Mimpi, dalam berbagai konteks dapat diterjemahkan. Tergantung dari sisi apa kita memaknai kata mimpi itu. Kata Andrea Hirata, sang penulis novel best seller Laskar Pelangi, ‘jangan takut untuk bermimpi’. Itu menunjukkan bahwa kita ga boleh takut untuk bermimpi. Tiap impian yang kita rajut adalah doa yang terpanjatkan. Apapun itu, tiap orang pasti memimpikan hal yang terbaik.

Kalo Raditya Dika bilang, “gantungkanlah mimpimu setinggi langit2 kamar,” gw ga sepenuhnya setuju. Let’s think! Klo di luar sana ada langit, knapa qta ga menggantungkan mimpi kita setinggi langit, kenapa ga kita gantungkan setinggi bintang? Ga da salahnya qta bermimpi setinggi langit2 kamar, mungkin agar mudah kita menjangkaunya. Ibaratnya cukup dengan tangga biasa pun kita dapat meraihnya. But remember, big dream need big effort. Yeah, mimpi yang besar membutuhkan usaha yang besar pula untuk meraihnya. Lagian, selagi bermimpi itu gratis, trus menggantungkan di bintang’nya pun ga perlu pake pesawat Apollo ataupun Columbia milik Amerika, knapa ga kita gantungkan mimpi kita setinggi2nya.

Tapi jangan mentang2 kita dah mimpi, trus kita terjebak dalam mimpi itu. I mean that kita ga boleh Cuma mimpi aja. Mimpi itu kan sesuatu yang ingin kita peroleh and raih. Jadi kalo qta gad a usaha buat mewujudkan mimpi2 itu, ya namanya ‘omong doang’ alias bulshit, percuma bin mubah. For example, seseorang mimpi pengen jadi konglomerat terkaya di kotanya. A great dream. Tapi kalo tiap hari dia kerjanya Cuma tidur and ga da effort buat mewujudkan smua itu, ya mati aja. Sama aja bo’ong. So, segala sesuatu tu butuh perjuangan bwt ngedapetinnya.

Begitu juga gw. Gw punya mimpi2 yang gw gantungin setinggi langit di angkasa sedalam samudera *ceile*

Gw pengen kuliah dengan lancer dgn IP yang trus menanjak *naek gunung kale*, gt juga ma karir organisasi gw tanpa ganggu jalannya kuliah gw, gw pengen nylesein kuliah gw dengan waktu yang sesingkat2nya and lulus dengan predikat cumlaude. Gw pengen dapet beasiswa bwt nerusin S2 gw ke Amerika. Gw pengen jadi guru bahasa Inggris yang up to date and disayang murid2nya, gw pengen jadi pengusaha di bidang art, gw pengen jadi book writer, gw pengen mewujudkan distro gw ndiri, gw pengen jadi wanita karir yang sukses, gw pengen punya kluarga yang happily ever after, gw pengen terjun di bidang social, gw pengen..gw pengen……. And masih buanyak bgt ke’pengen’an-ke’pengen’an gw yang ga sempet tercurhat’kan di sini.

Muluk2 ga sie?? But I don’t care. Ga da salahnya kan bermimpi, and jangan coba2 utk mematahkan mimpi gw. Karna itu artinya akan mematahkan semangat hidup gw. Gw ga peduli pa smua mimpi2 gw tu bakal terwujud, who care! But the most important thing of those all, adalah mimpi2 itu membuat gw hidup. Mimpi2 itu biking gw semangat dalam menjalani hidup gw, karna gw sadar klo gw punya bola yang harus gw giring ke gawang untuk mencetak goal. Nah, mimpi2 gw itulah goal gw. Sesuatu yang harus gw raih dan dapatkan. Mimpi2 itu yang biking gw berjuang, karna gw taw, klo hanya gw lah yang bisa memperjuangkan mimpi2 itu. Nobody will make me down. I’ll fight and defend.

So, ayo SEMANGAT..SEMANGAT…..!!!!

I bLieve I can do it!

If U say U cant, so U cant. But I say… Yes, I can.

Believe in yourself and The God will bless us..

Cheer up and keep fighting!!!!

Go Girl! Go Nawang! Be Yourself!

Reach your dreams come true!

Thom Yorke 'Radiohead' vs Armand Maulana 'Gigi'

semalem gw nonton 51th Grammy Award di salah satu TV swasta. emang sie bukan live show, but it doesnt matter. bwt gw yang gila musik, ajang yang satu ni emang ga bisa dilewatin, dimana para musi2 dunia berlaga di ajang yang bergengsi banget.

nah, d'story begin.. waktu radiohead manggung ngebawain single '15 steps' dari album in rainbow mereka, this is my first time lihat aksi panggung mereka. and guess what, gilee.. aksi panggung vokalisnya tuh mirip abiz ma aksi panggung vokalis salah satu band yang cukup melegenda di ranah musik tanah air si Armand Maulana.

gw bingung and takjub juga, gile ney,, gag mungkin kn klo band seKaliber Radiohead niru aksi panggung Gigi..

gw jadi mikir, pa mungkin aksi panggung si Armand Maulana ni terinspirasi dari aksi panggung si Thom Yorke ini?? who knows. cuz gw juga ga begitu ngerti ma Radiohead and juga ga begitu ngerti ma Armand Maulana, sang vokalis jebolan Gigi ini.
tapi,gw akui mereka ber2 tu keren abizz. boleh aja sie terinspirasi and menginspirasi satu sama laen, tapi ga brarti mzti ngejiplak kan.. gw yakin mereka punya sisi unik masing2.
guys, ni cuma pendapat independen gw lho, ga bermaksud wat menyalahkan salah satu pihak ataupun menjatuhkan satu pihak. gw cm speak up aj dalam pendapat gw sebagai seorang yang suka musik. jadi gw mohon maap yang segede2nya bwt para fans Radioead and juga fans'y Gigi klo da kata2 gw yang agak menyolok hati klian smua. gw gak bermaksud pa2 guys, cuma pendapat pribadi ajah.

so, good luck ajah bwt Radiohead and Gigi. Keep the music alive!!!

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Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here So I prayed
I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

"Gw hari ini............................"

whooooaaaa............
this is me today.....

"Lonely", kaya lagunya Akon

"...Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im ms. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely..."

"BT", Dewiq bangetz...!!!

"...Nggak boleh begini, nggak boleh begitu,

harus apalagi, harus apalagi

bete bete ah

basi basi lhoh..."

"I'm not Okay", My Chemical Romance punya...

"...I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay..."

whoooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............................................................

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