thunder in my heart

I'm tired of being like this..

confusing by your glow

starving in this blurry

you shoved my pride

leave me naked under your lying ground

it's so hard to breathe

but it's time to awake

and go away...


Saturday, July 25, 2009 at 9:40am

I never think about this before...

u make me feel this anymore..

somthin that ever lost from d'corner of my story..

and let that saga begin..

if U r wrong, I dont wanna be right..

just because its my choice...


Friday, July 24, 2009 at 2:12am

My confusi0n

Gag taw..
Mlm ne terkapar dgn pRasaan yg lemur..
Tertampar oleh smua yg diparadoks'kan oleh wktu..
Ketika nyata dan asa tak lagi terbingkai..
Aku hanya bisa memandang dalam sendu..
Biar luka terlarut..
Menghanyut..
Aku menyerah..


Tuesday, July 14, 2009 at 12:29am

nothing special...

a friend told me that he was so bored with his life. nothing special activity that he could do, just spent a lot of time to get the online date or something else.
he felt so lonely. he wish that something special will happen to his life.
loneliness, not so bad at all. just enjoy it. and something that he must know, that there's no special ingredients, just yourself.

so, find the special things from your life, it doest fall from the sky or at the corner of the street. not from the other's said or the other wanna see from you. just yourself.
look into your heart, and U'll see, what a special U are...

kapan terakhir kali kamu tertawa???

tertawa...
hal yang gratis.. tapi buatQ, it's so hard to do..
kapan ya terakhir kali??
kayanya hampir dua minggu yang lalu..
saat tu Q bisa bener2 ketawa dengan puas and Q ngrasa ketawaQ waktu itu bener2 tulus..

aku bener2 bisa ngrasa lega..
tapi sering kali tak da tempat untuk sekedar tertawa..
menertawakan apa?
akhir2 ini tak ada hal yang bisa Q terawakan, atau membuatQ tertawa..
bahkan untuk sebuah senyum..
yang tulus dari hati..
tak ada ruang untuk menjadi diriku..
rasanya berat..
aku lelah dengan semua ini..
selalu berdiri dibelakang bayangan sosok aneh ini..
bukan aku, kau, atau dia..
hanya ingin terbebas dari semua ini..
hanya ingin menjadi diriku sendiri
sendiri...
dan ingin benar2 sendiri...

Monday, February 23, 2009 at 1:11pm